You’re two-three weeks into bar prep and it’s not fun anymore. It’s likely you feel overwhelmed and don’t trust your abilities or the process. You are telling yourself (and anyone who will listen): I can’t do this because…
I’ve always had open-outline exams so I’ve never had to memorize this much material.
I can’t keep up with everything on the commercial bar prep schedule.
I’ve never been good at essay/multiple choice/standardized tests.
First, these feelings are completely normal and expected. You feel this way because you’ve let the bar exam take control. You think you are following the process but it’s likely you are still trying to prepare for the bar exam the same way you would study for a law school exam. You are trying to master each subject before going on to the next. As you are finding out, this won’t work.
Second, it’s time to make a decision and you have two options: (1) do or (2) do not.
I recommend option one.
Yes, you feel overwhelmed but you can push through it by changing your approach. Stop trying to memorize massive amounts of material and focus on learning it. One way to learn material is through something called interleaving which, along with spaced repetition involves mixing up study material in order to create connections between concepts.
What is most important about the learning process is that it is effective in the long-run. As you go through the process you will make a lot of mistakes, forget rules, struggle to understand concepts. Your brain is working and it will come together.